| | yeahs o i got fired on thursday. my crap attendance finally caught up with me. the car is not working right now. i cant pass a drug test. what to do. cry about it. pretend it isnt real. run away to somewhere. | comments: Leave a comment   |
| | Current Music: | carpenters superstar | | Security: | | | Subject: | the other 2 | | Time: | 06:20 pm |
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Mr. Belvedere and Bosco aka the love of my life. Dont tell the other kitties. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | so today is our anniversary. i am excited and happyhappyhappy. we are going to stay in a hotel with a jacuzzi in the room tomorrow. life is good. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Figurines- Release me on the FLoor | | Security: | | | Subject: | broken link | | Time: | 03:35 pm | | Current Mood: |  awake |
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| I fixed the link from my last post. Now it actually takes you to a site. It's invisible hot pink right next to the sentence about it.
Had to come home early due to suprise period starting. I dont know why its a suprise for me every single month just how bad my cramps are. This time there is vomiting involved. I want to cut my insides out.
Instead I will sit here with my bong and muscle relaxers and look up bullshit online.
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| there was an article in the paper a few days ago about this guy who runs a cat shelter. Its actually not really a shelter. More like a 25 acre kitty ranch. This guy runs it about 100 miles west of jacksonville. He has a dayjob as a contractor in Ponte Vedre. He drives back and forth every day. He lives in a tiny shed on the property and has no running water or electricity.
I think what this guy is doing is amazing. Check out his site. caboodleranch
also Santino Rice is my hero. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | shins- caring is creepy | | Security: | | | Subject: | life is | | Time: | 12:03 pm | | Current Mood: |  maybe |
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| absurdly beautiful.
2 nights ago so depressed. problems at work. i see no reason to be here. i feel like im playing a game. someone elses game. get a job, make money, buy things you dont really need. support a government that kills people for power money oil. deadlines. shave your legs. girls wear pink. everyone be the same. i had no chose to come here, why can't i decide when i leave.
Today. all these ideas are still in the back of mind, they always will be. But, so are these. drawing sidewalk chalk pictures with my neices, watching my kitty friends chase a toy mouse. trying to connect with people (no matter how impossible it may seem). dancing around to amazing music that makes me fell alive. My sweet sweet jessica. love you so so much baby. you have saved my life.
i feel out of focus. this may be continued later. haha. damn mary j. so good, but oh so bad for the memory.
check out the artist on my myspace friends list. they have inspired me. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Bayside- Devotion and Desire | | Security: | | | Subject: | what | | Time: | 09:16 pm | | Current Mood: | amazing |
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| 10 things I did today:
1.Scooped poop
2.Picked up dog vomit
3.Watched a documentary called Making Grace.
4.Ate a burrito made with Boca "meat" crumbles and fake sour cream
5.Looked at poop under a microscope
6.Smoked a bowl
7.Wiped boogers under the seat of my car
8.Listened to the Bayside cd Jes made me
9.Took an xray of a 20 yr old cat
10.Cut my hair. For the first time in 12 yrs, I have bangs. (actually did this yesterday but whatev, its my list)
Lately Ive been having these moments of intense reality. I all the sudden realize that I could die. I get so fucking scared and sad. Then my wonderful brain quickly pushes those thoughts way in the back of my mind. After a few minutes of "reflection", my mind is filled with the trivial non-sense of "life" (yes, I am quotation happy).
We are all put here without choice. We don't know why we are here. We could all die at any moment. We don't know what happens after we die. Pretty shit deal if you ask me.
But since we do have to be here, why can't we just stop and really appreciate the fact that everyone alive has to deal with those statements.
Ok enough of that stoned philosophical shit. Sorry.
My meds have turned me into a fucking hippy. And Im ok with that. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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